Powerless

This afternoon, I make an offer to edit your presentation slide about Food and Beverage thing that must be presented tomorrow. I do that just because you look tired and sleepy, I know that you won't make it this noon and you will be stay overnight just to understand that slide.

Finally, I finish editing it on 3 hours. Suddenly, my BB group notification is ringing, that's message from her. She said that she won't make the presentation tomorrow because of the Setono's "lurah" wants to meet her and the midwife on the same time. I feel so powerless when you ask for help to request for substitute on that public presentation. 

I know that you're not hoping for me to help you to do that thing, but I really really want to help you. I know that my "Weakness" will freeze me in front of those audience. I feel like a man who had paralyzed on his both feet, but still trying to run. Sometimes I feel mad at myself, why I can't eliminate those weakness just for a moment. Why? I feel so powerless,..

From that situation, I realized that I won't be your good guard or guide for your future,..